My grandmother died this morning. I was supposed to go home today and my sister called me while I was in the subway. I don't even remember the walk home. We were expecting this but ..it still is sad. It is probably for the best because she was suffering and it was hard on her but ..for today I just want to cry my heart out.
R.I.P.

What does a bored student do on a Saturday night? Oh yeeeeh, get fat and watch lame movies. And play a little Starcraft and then getting bored with that too.
Gabi, my friend from Belgium dropped the bomb. She's hpv positive [no, it's not a typo] and I am more bummed about these news than she is. She's taking this rather lightly, but then again ..I suppose it's futile to get angry and sad. In the end it won't solve anything.
Last night, I met the japanese dude. He's nice. Of course Flavia stole the spotlight and humble mortals like moi stand no chance. Not like I had any to begin with. I am not that interesting or pretty or anything of the kind. But this is the self-bashing moi talking. I get like that when I see other people who are amazing or beautiful and I compare myself to them and I only see my flaws. Because it's only human to do so. If any of you knows how to forget insults, take compliments and realize their good points .. let me know. I have yet to figure it out.
But enough with the self-loathing and self-pity. I did meet this great girl. She hand-makes broches and rings and necklaces. And she's so cool and smart, and these compliments really do her no good. This is her self-promoting blog, but for all you non-romanians, it won't do you any good. Except maybe compliment her. If you like her stuff. But alas, I couldn't help myself and bought myself a broche.

@Kanji: ooooh then we definitely need to have a drinking contest. Pucca vs L hihihi. Ah your family isn't the only one with alcoholism running in. Yippiee. <3 The subways are back now. The subway is heaven compared to the bus.

You know what really sucketh? When you wake up at 6 to make sure that you're at the uni on time. And then you spend TWO WHOLE HOURS in the same bus because the traffic is really impossible. The subway management is on strike and so all the people have to take the buses. Bucharest had a shitty traffic anyway, but add 3 times the number of buses .. it's hell. I missed my first curs because I arrived at the uni at 9:40. And I left home at 7:15. Isn't this the grimmest? Trv and br00tal. I suppose tomorrow is going to be the same.

Remember the insane coach from Sex is Zero and again? She's actually a singer. Go figure.
this is her singing

But Robert Carlyle with his Johnnie Walker commercial ...great actor:



And oh .. I am drinking myself silly now. Wine FTW! And some vodka later on. Yippieeeeee.

I am pissed. Severely pissed. My brother's gf still didn't move out. Is she waiting for a push or something like that? I'm willing to push her .. no biggie. And I swear that my classmates are getting dumber by day. Is it really that much to ask of their lonely neuron to conjugate the verb at the right tense and moreover, the right person? English is one of the easiest languages to learn. It has a poor morphology as well. Really now .. I has being?! it doesn't had?! haved being walking?!. And these are only a few examples of how my classmates can create a massacre with this language. Their vocabulary and accent are below sea level.
And then I have this person at the uni. Only the sight of her repulses me, but lo! she's supposedly a dee-vah. If only she had some grounds to base her statement on. We don't talk or even acknowledge the other's presence. But today she finally took pity on this undersigned humble mortal and went on with a crushing tirade. Our Literature teacher re-scheduled last Friday's seminar for today and I thought I could do a good deed and inform the other students. And of course today was not good with the dee-vah's schedule and she said that I am so rude for talking with the teacher and planning the seminar on a day that she wanted to rest her ginormous ass. Last time I checked I didn't have a degree in Philology therefor it was not my task to re-schedule a seminar, since I am only a student and it is the teacher's task and wish. Her lonely neuron is tired. Man she sucks so much. Actually I don't think she can do that either. But of course it didn't end there. Apparently I was the only one who read the text for Literature. The dee-vah, who can't even say a 'hi' or even a 'go fuck yourself!' or anything to brighten up my day, came up to me and demanded: "Give me your notes. Maybe they are satisfactory enough to copy them.". If it were possible, I wish I could have shoved my foot down her throat until she shitted my shoe. I hate her type of person. Opportunist to no end.

I am pissed today. Severely pissed. And I am mean. This was the censored part.

@Kanji: drinking games you saaaaaay. Mind you, I have a rather high tolerance for alcohol *innocent desu*

I don't know why .. it just so happened that .. really this came so suddenly but .. I feel the urge to drink myself silly.

I walked for 6 hours straight. Well give or take. Around 6 hours. But eh anygay, the result of my walk today: I got to see some japanese prints and a little bit of workshop. Overall it was amazing, simply putting it. I also bought myself a new shirt. Simple, black. Guess I really cannot buy myself something more colorful =)). I did try though. And felt uncomfortable.
But yeah, I am currently raping VS Arashi. Aiba is the biggest kid I have ever seen. They're all adorkable, but Aiba rubs on me the mostest ..at the moment x). And I am still the pedophile for Chinen Yuri. I am so brain-fucked.
Time to take a break and ...well ...rape the Yves Rocher catalog.

@Kanji: yeah hehe. More for you to read x). And I was asked to post my flaws. I still don't accept most of my flaws heh.

Barely today I listened to Gazette's new/latest single before I decay. I just couldn't bring myself to listen to it. Mostly because the first half of the song didn't appeal to me. But it gets better with every listen =)). I still love them boys, but this song just ..doesn't meet my expectations.
But anygay, Hiroki Narimiya is the embodiment of sex. I was watching Tokyo DOGS just for Mizushima Hiro and Oguri Shun [the drama is not that spectacular, but hey, it features two hotties], and in the first episode Hiroki Narimiya gets all bad-ass. Guns, leather, great ass, his voice ..joy x).

this amuses me deeply

So, I decided to own to my 20 flaws. To be honest, I try to hide them as much as possible, because I don't like them. At all. But here it goes:
01. I'm shy.
02. I'm paranoid.
03. I'm really weird [at least others say that about moi].
04. I'm emotive.
05. I have way too sudden mood swings.
06. I'm possesive.
07. I like being in control [guess it's not really the same as being possesive.. eh?].
08. I forgive but never forget, but most of the time I don't even forgive.
09. I never express what I truly feel.
10. I trash-talk others.
11. I tend to be misanthropical.
12. I tend to be snobbish.
13. I'm ungracefully clumsy.
14. I'm jealous.
15. I'm extremely lazy, you can basically write me off as a couch potato.
16. I lack self-esteem when it comes to my physical part [I will never consider myself pretty, but I will always think that I am smarter than the average idiot. I don't lack self-esteem when it comes to my intellect as well, but there are better tools in the tool-shed].
17. I'm mean.
18. I'm a pessimist.
19. I'm more stubborn than a mule [if possible o.o].
20. I lie.

I creeped you out now didn't I? hehe.
On another note, I am having a really hard time reading nowadays. My eyes hurt like hell when I try reading and I have to make these really funny faces to able to read something. Just today, I barely finished making some summaries for Deutsch because I kept squinting, scrunching my nose, closing one eye and so long and so forth. These new glasses were supposed to improve my sight, but it seems it's worse. Or I truly need to sleep and rest my eyes more. Hmmm.
Ah Flavia just called me. Goddamn I love that queen-bitch. Not only did she get the mail and phone number of the japanese dude from the uni, but she also invited him next week at a orgyparty at her house. Which I am also attending. Yeah she called me to invite me to the orgyparty next week. And brag about the immensity of her balls. eeeeeh x)

I have been such a good kid today. You know ..did part of my German summaries, didn't fight with sister, ate my veggies, brushed my teeth, took my vitamins. Okay okay I kid. Today I feel like it's my birthday all over again. Much like yesterday. Maybe I am just having a good week. And I really don't want to ruin it by doing my essays and projects. I keep mentioning them, mostly because I have yet to start on them ..and I should. I have no chances to get motivated.

You know what it's like when you hxc starve the whole day, then you come home and stuff your tummy with every piece of food in your reach even though you know it's bad for you but you do it anyway, because hey there must be at least one dumbass, and then your tummy hurts so bad that you want to roll over and die? Well one bottle of coke and one choco bar later ..I'm all better, thank you for your concern =P.
Weeeeeeell anygay ... today I finished reading Requiem for a Dream. The brother I live with said to me that I am very cultured ...for a person who doesn't read anything. Well esqueeeeze me that you're never home to actually see me reading pffffft wanker >_>.
But the freak at the uni was the best at complimenting me. He said I'm fat and need to loose weight o.o. A fanboy should never say that.. loser. And speaking of classmates, my English classmates cannot fully relate to the extension of their stupidity. They amaze me. Not only do they fail at English, but they also fail at Romanian. Language, grammar, literature and history ..well practically everything related to Romania. Wow.
But yeah, today I'm happy. I'll let you on about today some other time. Time to stalk.

@Kanji: noooope .. that day I did nothing at all. Besides making plans, day-dreaming and watching The Yakuza Papers [<-- recommended by one of my brothers, heh go figure =))]. MSN ..yes. I know. I really have to come more often <3

I am bored silly. I re-did my homework [because yesterday I was equally bored and did my homework], finished 2 Starcraft episodes, started re-reading Requiem for a Dream to finally be able to catch it up. I even cleaned up.. I could finish meine Glossar but my brain cells are way too bored. I watched everything possible on youtube. And it's barely the middle of the day. This is going to be a long day. And my phone is dying :C

-_-"

@Kanji: well haha yes. Apple cake ..I don't think calling it a pie would be appropriate, because it's not actually a pie. But it was delicious nevertheless.

Thank you all for you kind wishing. It really meant a lot to me to get all these messages and wishes. To be frank, I was expecting this day to go downhill ...but it was much better. Today I decided that being my birthday and all I should skip classes and bake an apple cake. I didn't even do my German homework or anything that has to do with the university. But just for today .. I don't care :).