So I did my sister a favor and called the guy with the job opportunity to set an interview date. He was busy and he said he'd call back. And that was on Friday x). Today is Monday and still no call. Not that I am too sad about it though. Well this means that I will be heading back home, to at least help my parents with their work since my dad managed to break his right arm. And everybody told him countless times to take it easy but he won't listen to reason. Many said that I take my stubborness from dad, but that is wrong. I take my stubborness from both my mom and dad XD.

But I digress. So I will be heading back home. But not this week, as I wanted to. Because I have no place to sleep in. Back home, all the rooms are taken by close or some rather distant relatives. Shit is awesome. And on Wednesday, it's also one of my brother's bday. And he's buying us drinks. So it would be rude of me to leave.

And oh yeah, yesterday I went with my sister to look for a bday present for him but it appears we're seriously lacking in the brain department because ..Sunday, all the shops are closed. So we ended up at the movie theatre and we saw Harry Potter bla bla 3D. Regardless of the fact that neither one of us actually likes the series, we only saw it because it was in 3D. It was a bad call on our behalf because the 3D was disappointing to say at least. It felt like I was watching a 2D movie, the story was predictable and I haven't even read the books, the ending was pretty lame. On the other hand, there was nothing better playing, as The Green Lantern 3D wasn't playing in that movie theatre yet and they stopped playing Priest for a while now. Yes, I would rather see bad-ish movies instead of HP.

Then my sister came by, I made food, we saw Tron: Legacy ...meh.

Long time no blogging. Almost made it this month with only blog post. Almost. Well I am back in Bucharest. Have been here for quite a while now. Can you feel my enthusiasm? Can you? Can you? Well you fucking can't since it's not there -__-.

Ever since I came back here I've been cat-sitting. One of my brothers and his gf left for Greece and they left me the kitty to take care of. She's adorable, I have to admit that ...but she's a bloody devil. And I am slightly allergic to cats. But seriously, this cat makes me go bananas. One room's floor is covered in dirt because she apparently likes to dig the dirt from the flower pots at the most peculiar hours. Or chew at the cardboard boxes. Her name is Freya, after the norse goddess. Because both my brother and his gf are fans of viking metal and stuff like that. Although I always thought that the goddess' name was written as Freyja or Freja, but what do I know.

I've also been looking for a job, but that has been proven to be unsuccessful. I was looking for a job that had at least something to do with my major, but so far no good. And then my sister found me a job as an assistant manager [that's the pretty way to say secretary], which I find to be complete and utter shit. But my family is making me go to the interview, 'since we cannot always get what we want'. That's tough love. There is the highest possibility that I will fail the interview, since I lack absolutely every quality that is required in a job like this one.

But firstly, I have to go get my sort-of diploma which proves that I am a qualified translator. It's a lot of paperwork and running to do and it will probably be useless but one never knows.

For now I shall go drown my sorrows in books and cola. Shut up and don't judge. I will probably face a full year of being stuck in a job I don't like so shut up.

Another month has passed and I still write whenever I remember. I don't think many people are reading this anyway. But those few who do, matter the most *cheesycheesy* haha. I am home right now. Unfortunately for me, I won't be staying the entire summer here. I will have to go back to Bucharest and be a responsible adult. That and looking for a new place to live in with my brother and sister, but my sister will be moving in with another brother. On one hand it's good, because me and my sister, the two of us are impossible, we can't function together. On the other hand, I will go back to sleeping on the floor, given how my couch is now completely broken.

I don't really have much to say. Life is much the same around here. Except this time of the year, there are practically no tourists in my hometown, it's raining a lot and the weather is cold.

Oh and mom bought me a piggy bank shaped like a fishy. As of lately, instead of simply putting one of us kids in charge of collecting money for each's birthday, she buys a piggy bank. I know there are still a few months left until my birthday, but who knows how soon I will come back home.

But here's a pretty video and a nice songie...

So how about some book- and YRporn? Given how currently I have nothing better to do, I thought I could take some high quality pictures of the products and books I own. I have a lot of products and it is high likely that I do not need that many. However, I will never have too many books. And these days, I desperately need a good book.



Naaaaah ..instead of my YR-whoring, let me share some pics of a pretty doggie:

This is candy to my ears. It's like Hageshisa to, Kono Mune no Naka de Karamitsuita Shakunetsu no Yami and Lotus had sex and this is the end product.

So this time has come ... Well not me blogging, but me graduating. Past Thursday I had my oral presentation of the thesis. And all the professors in the committee had nothing but good remarks. My Deutsch is getting better und besser. Yeah I know I don't sound too happy and excited ..these past days I was happy and excited that I did exceptionally well on my presentation but ..today I graduated and I am currently sinking into a depression. Besides the fact that I am so socially handicapped that I never got along that well with my classmates ..what comes next after graduating? If not a master's programme [which I am not going to do this year, since I missed the enlistment date ..which was last September for this year], I must get a job. Thing which I really do not want to do, because I don't want to be a responsible adult just yet. I don't know if this is merely a sign of procrastination or just a Peter Pan Syndrome. I may have a job perspective, but I don't want it. I don't want any of the things that come next. I don't know what I want to do now, but I certainly know what I don't want.

It's about 10 minutes to 2 am ...and I am so close to abandoning all hope. For the past 3 days I've been writing almost continuously, and I am still far from being finished. This is really a bloody sysiphean work. The days prior to my exams, I would write for about 8 hours per day, these days I'm practically breathing, eating and living my thesis and I am still not done. I am this --> .__. close to having a nervous breakdown. It's frustrating because I am writing and writing and keeping on writing and my work is not yet done. I don't know how much more I will say the same thing in a different form, but maybe then you would get why I am so bloody frustrated. So far I have over 200 pages and still counting and I just can't do it anymore. And my whole skin itches, my eyes are screaming and my hands and wrists are sore. Hesus pissing christ -___-"

It's 2 am, outside started raining and it's pretty much a thunderstorm ...and I am still writing on my thesis. In 6 hours, I will have been writing on my thesis for 24 hours continuously and I am quite sure that it will still feel like I reached nowhere with it -___-"

At the moment I am feeling like I am quite fucked ... royally fucked. I've been writing on my thesis continuously and yet it still looks like I have reached nowhere with it. I still have a lot to write at it. It's frustrating really... My sister wants to smack me over the head and quite frankly, I don't blame her because I am at fault. I am starting to be a bit panicked, along with frustration and feeling nervous. Triple shit.

Tomorrow, I have my first two exams. Englisch und Deutsch. And I feel pretty unprepared ...figures ...and for a moment there, I thought I was royally fucked with my thesis. But it turned out somewhat okay, so I've been in this lax state of mind when I should have been studying, because I study/work great under pressure. But noooo and Starcraft II is really to pretty, especially right now, when I should be focusing on my last days as a student. Meeeh.

So as I am sitting on this couch, trying and trying to write something on my thesis, thing I cannot so easily do these days, my mind started wandering ...I came to realize that I miss home so bloody much, even though it's really a small town where nothing ever happens. Today is just one of those days where I cannot write for shit, so I spend most of my time with my head in the clouds. The rest of the time I spend it with Starcraft II, because yes, I did buy the game and it's pretty awesome...but let's get back to being poetic x).



On Thursday I have my first two exams and I have yet to properly study for them .__.

Oh em gee Oh em gee I am almost finished with my thesis XD. Actually no, but it felt good just to say that. If only I had listened to everyone's advice and started working on it earlier, today I wouldn't be stuck in Bucharest, doing the same shit day in day out. I haven't even been home since March. On one hand I am glad that it will all be over with, on the other hand ...what next?

I've been missing for a while now. I'm just incredibly tired. I'm working on my thesis, yet it feels like I'm going nowhere fast. And when I'm not working on my thesis, I'm really not doing anything at all ...because my brain just shuts down and I can't write nor do anything productive. These days I'm in a state of feeling much like a zombie [it's the most appropriate term to describe my state of being at the moment].

Today is also my brother's bday. And we bought him a pretty decent [and by 'decent' I mean good quality but pretty bloody expensive] chair. I hope he comes back from work with ice-cream in an obscene quantity.

And I think that now I shall take a nap. Because I got stuck with my work and I'm tired and I can't focus anymore...but fret no, this happens to me daily. Well actually, I should fret and you should fret with my by association :3.

It's so pretty outside. It's sunny and warm, maybe a bit too warm for me but that's okay, and the birds are chirping and there's a slight cool breeze roaming through the tree crowns and it feels just so damn pleasant, but on one hand I am looking at pictures of Bucharest and Mangalia during winter and it makes me miss the snow and the cold and the eerie nostalgia. And I am sitting on the same old couch finally writing on my thesis, gulping down on mineral water as I am trying to get rid of my Cola addiction and my mind is really fixated on that fizzy drink. And I want to get out so badly, but I know that I have to sit and write, because if I were more responsible all along, I would have more time right now to enjoy the simple pleasures of life. Catching up with Bishie, as she is going home tomorrow ...and I haven't seen her in such a long time. Going home as well, as I've been home only once since I started my 2nd and last semester. Going to the movies, since this is the perfect time to waste it watching a silly movie on the big screen. Anything but sitting on the same old couch and writing on a thesis that's giving me headaches.

And I can't believe it's all over now. This past Friday was my last official day as a student. And I spent it in a rather pathetic way. Waiting for the professor in the hallway, as he was one and a half hour late. Talking to my sister about Diablo 3 on the phone, because as much as I tried in these past three years, I failed at integrating myself. I either pass as the weird kid [I still don't get it what is it about me that passes as weird] or I don't pass as anything at all. And then the professor butthurt us. I am doing amazingly bad this last semester, at some courses anyway. At other courses I do amazingly well.

But I have to get back to my writing now ...and gazing out the window. It's really so pretty outside.



The coordinating professor for my thesis is the same one that almost failed me on my last project, as my previous project was the best I've ever written and he was too expectant of me. Impressive amount of pressure x_x

As everyone who is reading my blog can see, I've been missing for a while now. Well not that much actually, but still.. I don't even recall what I was doing the last time I updated my blog. I had some exams in between and they kind of sucked. Well actually I sucked at them mhmm. And right now I should be studying for my exam tomorrow. It's my last one as well *pressure pressure*. And after this last exam, I can finally start working on my thesis properly. I even went to the Goethe Institute and borrowed some books, and they're piled up and collecting dust so nicely so far :3.

And I am currently stalking the Blizzard site, waiting for some new updates on the release date of Diablo 3 ...so close yet so far away. They updated though, with a new class [Demon Hunter], and I have to admit that the trailer in particular looks much better than their previous ones, graphic wise. I know, my love for the Diablo franchise is unhealthy and I am a total dork bla bla bla ...I kind of hope that the game doesn't come out this month or the following month, or I will most likely fail with my thesis x_x.

But now my break is over, I must get back to studying. Happy happy joy joy x).