So how about some book- and YRporn? Given how currently I have nothing better to do, I thought I could take some high quality pictures of the products and books I own. I have a lot of products and it is high likely that I do not need that many. However, I will never have too many books. And these days, I desperately need a good book.



Naaaaah ..instead of my YR-whoring, let me share some pics of a pretty doggie:

This is candy to my ears. It's like Hageshisa to, Kono Mune no Naka de Karamitsuita Shakunetsu no Yami and Lotus had sex and this is the end product.

So this time has come ... Well not me blogging, but me graduating. Past Thursday I had my oral presentation of the thesis. And all the professors in the committee had nothing but good remarks. My Deutsch is getting better und besser. Yeah I know I don't sound too happy and excited ..these past days I was happy and excited that I did exceptionally well on my presentation but ..today I graduated and I am currently sinking into a depression. Besides the fact that I am so socially handicapped that I never got along that well with my classmates ..what comes next after graduating? If not a master's programme [which I am not going to do this year, since I missed the enlistment date ..which was last September for this year], I must get a job. Thing which I really do not want to do, because I don't want to be a responsible adult just yet. I don't know if this is merely a sign of procrastination or just a Peter Pan Syndrome. I may have a job perspective, but I don't want it. I don't want any of the things that come next. I don't know what I want to do now, but I certainly know what I don't want.

It's about 10 minutes to 2 am ...and I am so close to abandoning all hope. For the past 3 days I've been writing almost continuously, and I am still far from being finished. This is really a bloody sysiphean work. The days prior to my exams, I would write for about 8 hours per day, these days I'm practically breathing, eating and living my thesis and I am still not done. I am this --> .__. close to having a nervous breakdown. It's frustrating because I am writing and writing and keeping on writing and my work is not yet done. I don't know how much more I will say the same thing in a different form, but maybe then you would get why I am so bloody frustrated. So far I have over 200 pages and still counting and I just can't do it anymore. And my whole skin itches, my eyes are screaming and my hands and wrists are sore. Hesus pissing christ -___-"

It's 2 am, outside started raining and it's pretty much a thunderstorm ...and I am still writing on my thesis. In 6 hours, I will have been writing on my thesis for 24 hours continuously and I am quite sure that it will still feel like I reached nowhere with it -___-"

At the moment I am feeling like I am quite fucked ... royally fucked. I've been writing on my thesis continuously and yet it still looks like I have reached nowhere with it. I still have a lot to write at it. It's frustrating really... My sister wants to smack me over the head and quite frankly, I don't blame her because I am at fault. I am starting to be a bit panicked, along with frustration and feeling nervous. Triple shit.

Tomorrow, I have my first two exams. Englisch und Deutsch. And I feel pretty unprepared ...figures ...and for a moment there, I thought I was royally fucked with my thesis. But it turned out somewhat okay, so I've been in this lax state of mind when I should have been studying, because I study/work great under pressure. But noooo and Starcraft II is really to pretty, especially right now, when I should be focusing on my last days as a student. Meeeh.

So as I am sitting on this couch, trying and trying to write something on my thesis, thing I cannot so easily do these days, my mind started wandering ...I came to realize that I miss home so bloody much, even though it's really a small town where nothing ever happens. Today is just one of those days where I cannot write for shit, so I spend most of my time with my head in the clouds. The rest of the time I spend it with Starcraft II, because yes, I did buy the game and it's pretty awesome...but let's get back to being poetic x).



On Thursday I have my first two exams and I have yet to properly study for them .__.

Oh em gee Oh em gee I am almost finished with my thesis XD. Actually no, but it felt good just to say that. If only I had listened to everyone's advice and started working on it earlier, today I wouldn't be stuck in Bucharest, doing the same shit day in day out. I haven't even been home since March. On one hand I am glad that it will all be over with, on the other hand ...what next?